I'll be your winter coat buttoned and zippedstraight to the throat

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 15:14:36 GMT

i know i move way way too much :(
but this is the last one for a while,promise

<3
_zannybars_

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 14:56:01 GMT

so i was doing really bad at keeping up on lj for a few weeks and instead of going back and figuring out who still updates and who doesn't, i just made a new lj.

FGTZ! FGTZ! FGTZ! FGTZ! FGTZ! FGTZ! FGTZ! FGTZ!

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 16:36:31 GMT

im on my lunch break and came home to do some laundryyyyyyyy

and i was so excited and i thought id share.
i took a shit and it came out so fucking fast.
and it wasnt even diarrhea, d00d.

i miss erik. :( he has school til fucking 330. i get out at 210! :(
he was a jerk off yesterday night. i said please dont take dramamine tonight.
he said how come and i said you always trip bad and it scares the hell out of me.
everytime you do it, you say you think you're going to die. i'd be really upset.
he said i always get mad so he's gonna do it anyways.

then he said JK ILU BEBE<3

everyone is crying at school today.
its really sad.

i'm happy cos i'm not crying
and i'm not even sad but seeing them all cry
cos of a bunch of random-ass reasons

it's sad :(
sad people are contagious!

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 04:51:22 GMT

i had an entry all typed out and it deleted itself :[

today was an okay day- erik & i visited his grandma.
she's a pretty hip lady, she said the word "fuck."

wow. i just got into a huge fight with joel and megan.

joel IMed me.

joel:are you still going out with that erik kid cos i here he's a real asshole
me:wow and i hear you're real gay? stfu
joel: wow you're mean
me: why would you IM me telling me my boyfriend is an asshole? that's a real convorsation maker, here how about this joel, wow i heard your ex megan skory was a real big skank!

(megan and i use to be really good friends and then we just stopped talking and she tried to get the whole friendship thing back but i realized that she was just a really, really shitty friend who got me into a lot of drama.)

so ANYHOW. being the fucking lameasses that they are.
they decide oh here's a chance for some drama, wahoooooo.

joel tells megan and she flips out & IMs me telling me how much of a fuck up i am and nobody likes me and "my precious boyfriend" is the only person i hang out with.

1) megan is the bitch of the high school from hell. once i realized that, i made a new group of friends and it might not be 50 fucking idiots but it's like 10 people that i can trust with my life. sorry, i think i'm better off, you little fucking cunt.

2) erik means absolutely everything to me, and even if he WAS the only person i ever spent time with, i'd still be on the top of the world. enough said. :)

3) every single night erik and i hang out with mark, jenny, billy, and cassie. which, ironically but not really, enough, it works out 'cos mark and jenny are dating and billy and cassie are dating. so it's like a triple date every night at erik's apartment. and it seems to be working out quite smoothly.

basically my life has gone from being some sit-com drama ass bullshit show to something kind of calm and actually really fucking amazing, and megan, being the dirty fuck that she is, can't open her chinky ass eyes to realize that someone other than herself is happy and she should just fucking shove my happiness up her loose ass because she's so gay and god i just want to laugh right now.

i think i'm going to <3

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 16:25:10 GMT

i need to get off the gheyass computer cos
i need to go to eriks house and hang out with him

i hadnt seen my mom in like 3 monthes
& now that my dad is out of town im staying with her
she wants to spend all this quality time together

and its really awkward
because im use to being at my dads
and being with erik all day

now she wants to goto a movie and dinner tonight
its not asking much but ugghhh im so not family-oriented
i suck at this kind of thing and i know it hurts them

but wtf ya know
i cant help it

so while shes at some stupid basket party
im gonna go to eriks and shut my cell off for the day

im evil :(

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 04:42:22 GMT

SURRA'S BACK IN TOWN..!@#

so here's an update..

erik got his own apartment. we practically live together.
we have crazy spontanious moments like amazing sex and getting really high a lot.
we have cute movie moments, for exaaaample.... :)

-he shaped candle wax into a heart & gave it to me saying he gave me his heart
-i wrote me love you long time on his wrist when he was sleeping today

we're so fucking married. i do his dishes and he cooks me steak BAHAHA

anyways
i miss lj
so i'm back

i hope nobody hates me now :(

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 22:04:02 GMT

holy shit i havent updated in a long time. again.

i miss everybody<33

Thu, 07 Oct 2004 19:09:18 GMT

poop!

i haven't updated in like a week.
what's new with me...lalalala

i changed high schools.
i'm at an alternative high school now.
bahahah that's for stupid kids.
but it's cool cos a lot of my friends go there.

=)

i'm still with erik.<3
we're crazy in love, so what now nigga!

sorry i haven't been updating or commenting, life has just been really crazy and hectic, plus my computer at my dad's doesn't work and they don't like me using theirs so.. i drove to my mom's just to update. what a fucking loser right?

anyhowwwwwww
off to erik's
i love you guys

ally
kincy
brandy!
sandy
shelly
LINDSAY

oh my god what's with the fucking -y's???

umm there's more
so don't feel unloved

<3333

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 20:54:03 GMT

so i got really high today and i decided to be an asshole and make a friends cut.

if i took you off and you think it was an accident, comment at your own fucking risk.

bahahaha
♥

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 23:24:16 GMT

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<3